Collection of Personal Works

California Dreaming...from JAX

2011-06-01T16:56:00.000-07:00

I've been here in Jacksonville, Florida for all of 5 days now. And it has been, as expected, a huge culture shock. I've been acclimating well I think, but there are still so many moments thus far, that are very interesting experiences.

First the landscape. Is phenomenal. So much more green, the kinds of green tones, jewel greens that I never have seen in california. Big, draping lengths of moss hanging from the trees. And long stretches of water weaving through the land. The humidity that every one was warning me against back home in Cali, is not the most horrendous thing ever....yet. It's still early in the season and the air is pretty muggy but, in an odd comforting way, I don't mind it too much. Oh! And cicadasssss! Large fat winged insects that make this insane ringing noise through the canopies of the trees. I have been searching high and low for them, because in Japan, they have them in insane abundance during the summer. And with similar summer climates I expected to find them. And although I don't see them nearly as much as I do in Japan, I do hear them and have definitely found at least some evidence of their existence....which makes me happy.

The food culture is different. It's more apparent to me that back home, we seem to eat simply to sustain, and not to enjoy. Here, with the crawfish boils and front yard BBQs that are started early in the day only to be enjoyed later that evening, not with just the family, but with the whole block, that is definitely something you don't typically experience in Cali. I most certainly witnessed a BBQ today that puts all the shiny high tech BBQs advertised and crooned over by the equally shiny and well groomed southern california men to shame.

The one thing I can not get used to yet, and am horrified on the daily of, is the unabashed shameless lack of fashion forward-ness, and lack of style here. As an artistic designer with a keen eye for style and aesthetics, seeing women at the store in shower caps, no bra, and flip flops over fuzzy socks is just an "aw HELL naw" moment every time. At least put on some blue jeans and take the damn shower cap off, no? In comparison to back home, many people are straight simple and country. I can't help but stare in wide eyed shock at some people's seemingly absolute lack of so called class, in comparison to those back home. But most people have heart. Big ones, and you can't help but enjoy their company most of the time.

This is most definitely not a city where I feel immediately at home. This most certainly is the furthest thing from New York, Los Angeles, or San Francisco. For being the largest city in the US per area, it has an extraordinarily small town feel to it for me. I have yet to find my niche, or my groove of life here and it is definitely unsettling and anxiety inducing. I feel so much smaller here being so far from home than I did in a city as large and as busy as New York where you would think the hustle and bustle would bury you alive. But the quiet of Jacksonville seems even more stifling to me....but then it's only been a week.

But even for having been here a week, I can see how now the place I used to call home, California, and more particularly the image that pertains to souther californian lifestyle can be so glamorous to people around the country. The lifestyle I took for such granted and the egos and attitudes that are cultivated there is something so foreign and different to those here. So even with my big head and pride too big for someone so small in stature, I have to say that as much as I said I hated it and wanted to "GTFO" of Cali....I miss it so, so much. For the first time in my life I feel terribly home sick, even though I am too stubborn to admit it out loud.

....but I still don't miss the LA traffic. :)

-M

a couple more from the last series.

2011-05-23T06:48:00.001-07:00

So again, these are photos taken by Matthew Jordan Smith. These shots are done in consecutive motion, to specific song that the photographer really likes. And I just close my eyes and move as the music moves me, and he just snaps*snaps*snaps away with the camera. He prefers the eyes closed on the models as it really does create a sense of intimacy in the photo, and it really helps me as the model just lose myself as well. The resulting photos are really beautiful, and have a feeling that really can't otherwise be captured in a pose-by-pose way of shooting photos.

It's been awhile.

2011-05-14T22:48:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since I've last posted.

But it's because so much has happened since I've graduated CalArts. Or hasn't happened really.

I moved back to South Orange County, back to the bubble of platinum blonde, plastic house wives, the land of franchises, and cookie cutter homes and streets. From a community of artists that was so supporting and creative, ever evolving ever challenging, I moved back to a community that was everything but inspirational...in fact, it made me feel as though it was sucking any feeling of inspiration and creativity right out of me. I so easily lost sight of what I love, and the artistic energy that I thrived on.

But winds of change have blown favorably into my sails. I've decided to change scenery. And from California I'm moving to Florida and I'll be documenting that here as well.

I guess I'll be posting all sorts of things beyond my art work here now. I've been doing much more modeling, and some photography, dancing, among other things. I've been feeding my artistic soul with all forms of art and media and I want to start blogging about it again.

I've not many people to personally share this or much of my self with lately. So I'll share here, in hopes that maybe some soul would come upon it and enjoy it.

Here are a few pieces I've done with celebrity photographer Matthew Jordan Smith this past month. Doing these side projects have been helping me feed back into the part of myself that I love so much and thrive off of. Makes me feel like some form of an artist again.

Something Wicked This Way Comes....

2010-02-05T09:11:00.001-08:00

Ray Bradbury's dark story of Something Wicked This Way Comes. In short, its about terrifyingly evil carnival that comes into towns and claims the souls of people who are drawn into the seductions of evil...and two little boys saving the day. yay! Another conceptual design project....this one is my most favorite project Ive done so far....and ehese are some of my favorite 3 designs.

Mr. Dark is the ringleader of the carnival, the second, is the Dust Witch, eyes sewn blind, and treelike branches that extend to the sky to "feeel" out the souls and emotions of humans. And the third, one of the few carnival freaks, this one is the Skeleton. These were designed for a venue and style accomadating dance theatre, with the story being told through music and dance instead of a just spoken dialogue. With dancers, singers and musicians. Think Cirque way of storytelling. ;)

Love is the Doctor

2010-02-05T08:31:00.001-08:00

Conceptual projects for class for the play Love is the Doctor (L'Amour Médecin) written by Moliére. The characters have a base from commedia dell'arte and takes place in the 15th century, france. These designs are not all the characters but some of the interesting ones. The last two renders puppet designs for the silly doctors practicing silly french cure-all medecins from that era, like bloodletting and enemas!

dance.

2010-02-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

This was the BFA2 Solo Concert from this past fall 2009 at CalArts Sharon Lund Disney Theatre. The dancer had a very specific idea from the year before she was cultivating and I came on as her costume designer.My first actual DANCE costume design! Watch the video below.

Trace

2009-12-29T14:31:00.000-08:00

Twisted Sisters

2009-12-29T14:25:00.000-08:00

5's & 10's

2009-12-29T14:21:00.000-08:00

Deposit.

2009-12-29T14:16:00.000-08:00

From this past semester.

Audrey Kawasaki

2009-05-10T15:11:00.001-07:00

So a friend of mine introduced me to this artist once, Audrey Kawasaki. Who does such amazing beautiful work with paints and graphite on raw wood. Anyways, inspired off her art, I designed a hat when we covered millinery in my costume techniques class. Here are some artwork in particular that I was inspired off of:

And here is the hat. Dont mind the messy background, I'll get better pictures of that hat at a later time to really showcase it in portfolios!

A few makeup photos.

2009-04-23T08:52:00.001-07:00

A random collection of makeup photos. I'll post more organized ones entries of makeup but here's a wide variety of things I've done.

Malo

2009-04-04T09:37:00.001-07:00

26 x 40

Pastel on black

Got my wisdome teeth pulled....

2009-03-23T17:37:00.001-07:00

Self portrait birthed from bordeom and wishes of a giant hamburger and fries just now. woot.

Puffer Fish

2009-03-21T12:52:00.001-07:00

26 x 40
Pastel on Black

Billiards

2009-03-21T12:37:00.000-07:00

Part of the set done yesterday in class. I like these. Last week I had niente good stuff, this week I liked almost all. :)

Noobs.

2009-03-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

18 x 24

Pastel & Charcoal

So I got photoshop, so I'm able to clean up drawings a bit more. I still have no clue how to work it past color adjustments. Oy. I have more from this model, Richard, but I'll post them tomorrow.

New Age Nerfertiti

2009-03-20T11:09:00.000-07:00

18 x 24

Pastel over marker

Big hat.

2009-02-22T01:25:00.000-08:00

Jack

2009-02-07T00:45:00.000-08:00

Stuff from today's class. I had a rough day personally with issues so I didn't get to delve into a rhythm of drawing that was working consistently. I also played with straight ink today for the first time so that was fun. First two are china marker, second two ink, and the last is charcoal.

Helmets

2009-01-30T18:41:00.000-08:00

These were done today, the first time I felt like the work I did throughout the day became a little series. I was very happy with how these turned out. :)

18 x 24 China Marker and Pastel

Tweak.

2009-01-22T12:52:00.001-08:00

These are stuff I did back in 2006. Done in paint pens for both and some get pens for the bottom as well, on 8.5 x 12.

Doodles

2009-01-18T23:35:00.000-08:00

Two doodles I did last night while drunk and bored. The mermaid one I started a month or so ago, and haven't been inspired to complete the rest of the paper yet. I'll probably try to do so this week.

Blu

2009-01-18T22:45:00.000-08:00

So last semester I did the makeup for a student written show by Virgina Grise called Blu. It was a showed about the lifestyles and the effects of East LA Chicano gang life intertwining with the stories and myth of Aztec culture. Because it was a show about gangs, which meant they needed gang tattoos, I had to tattoo each actor by hand.

We tried different methods, we could not buy premade tattoos since each tattoo had significance to each character so they were designed specifically for each character. We looked into Tinsley Tattoos, but for how many we needed to be made, it would have cost about $3000. We also tried Henna, Airbrush, but none really gave the look we wanted. And home printable tattoo paper was the most awful result ever. The ink was printed on a plastic adhesive sheet which was transfered onto skin by water but oh my gosh it looked PLASTIC and shiny.

So I decided to use tattoo pens, and had to hand do them ever night. These photos are the first batch of trial tattoos done by hand.

These definitely weren't my favorites, but since I didn't have a camera during the run of the show, I only have the trial tattoo photos from someone else's camera. =(

Second

2009-01-17T00:36:00.000-08:00

So today was first day of the second semester for life drawing. We started with charactures of eachother. These are my second series of charactures.

I couldn't loosen up with china marker and pastel like the last series, so these are with pen.

^My teacher and also a pretty chill dude.

"Donde Esta Santa Claus? "

Inspired by the random song playing at the time.

18 x 24

That last one, was just a mushpile of people, and sort of playing with composition. My goal for this semester is to work on rhythm and composition in drawing. Woot.

First

2009-01-17T00:05:00.000-08:00

I have been attending CalArts since Fall of 2008 as a BFA Costume Design student, and it's my first year there. It has been a world of firsts; I have been doing a lot of things I have never done, and have been continuing to experiment and develop skills and techniques I already have.

The following are a few pulled from a series of my first set of charactures. I've never attempted charactures really, as I was terrified of never having them turning out anywhere close to the models. These were also done in my first Life Drawing class ever. I had never taken any fine art classes ever in my life, and it has been what at first was a terrifying and intimidating as all hell of a class to a fantastic environment for me to exploring drawing in general as well as developing my own personal aesthetic.

18 x 24 China Marker & Pastel

And due to lack of photoshop at the moment these have been uploaded into my laptop ghetto style: with a camera. >.<